"I’m not good enough for him."
-Aihara Kotoko, ItaKiss Love In Tokyo Ep 3-
The quote was from Episode 3 of LIT where Noriko convinces Kotoko to like Naoki again and marry into their family. Kotoko smiles sadly saying she is not good enough for him.
The scene was from Episode 15 when Sahoko (invited by Naoki) came over to congratulate Iri-chan Papa from being discharged. She brings her cooking and impresses everyone, while Kotoko had to give up her seat and find herself somewhere else to fit in. Kotoko looks as everyone enjoy Sahoko’s cooking until finally her pretend smile disappears from her face.
This is one of the most heartbreaking scenes for me because of its deeper meaning. When Sahoko came, Ai Papa and Kotoko had to stand up and find another seat, with this Kotoko had to take a chair from the dining area since there are no seats left for her. It’s like a wake up call: this is Naoki’s family, and she has no place in it.
Another thing is when Sahoko said she learned her cooking from her mother. To me, someone who lost a parent would always find the topic painful; Kotoko also said before that she didn’t have a mother to teach her stuff girls should know, mainly why she isn’t good at cooking or knitting. On the other hand, there is this perfect girl who is everything she never was, and has things she will never have. Here is the girl who is good enough for Naoki, and Kotoko has to face the fact that it is not her.